"I hold on to You for dear life, and you hold me steady as a post..." Psalm 63

Monday, January 16, 2012

Resolve...and living

These next months are before me 
and in the back of my mind always...

They are a tribute to the fact that life is an endless cycle.
We birth,
we nurture,
we teach,
we empower,
we push forward...
and eventually {all too soon} we release completely.

While these thoughts provoke ache in a mother's heart,
they are reality.
They do not wait until we are ready...
because, truly..
would we be ready?

Move forward,
that is what we do...
with steps more deliberate 
eyes open a bit wider.

I don't want to miss this moment...
all too soon it will be gone, too.

And it still surprises me when I see him walk in front of me 
in seemingly slow motion..
my eye, like a lens, capturing the sight of him in slow motion...
stashed away, 
filed for a later day when the sight of him is needed.

There is temptation to let the melancholy seep in
to give in to the lure of discontentment.

But such is not for me
it is not for me to wish away today
for the fear of what comes tomorrow.

It is mine to live today
with contentment
and joy
Resolved to be present...

There are three children in this house today...
not one who has enlisted allegiance to his future...

There are three...
and they are counting on my presence to show up to live today.

"Don't lose your grip on Love and Loyalty. 
   Tie them around your neck; carve their initials on your heart.
Earn a reputation for living well 
   in God's eyes and the eyes of the people. 

  Trust God from the bottom of your heart; 
   don't try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; 
   he's the one who will keep you on track."
Prov. 3


Mrs.Rabe said...

I saw him at his work the other day...I thought of his choice and really am in wonder at how our kids grow and become men and women and make choices to serve in this way...I love a quote from Stonewall Jackson who when he was asked how he could be so immoveable on the battlefield said that he trusted in the Sovereignty of God and that he was just as safe on the field of battle as he was in his own bed. God had already determined the number of his days.

You are wise my friend...live with them all today, we never know what tomorrow will bring.


lindsey said...

Its a tough one, when you have more than one child and one of them has a specific need that requires much prayer, and we just seem to be focusing on that one person and feel like we are neglecting the others. BUT God knows and sometimes it is right because that one person is entering into a battle that does in fact require much warfare for that season. And throughout the day we can 'throw up' arrows of prayer for all our children knowing that our Father in heaven has each one of them in the palm of His hand...and we are blessed!

Mark and Heather Buckwalter said...

terri~thanks for your encouraging words on my blog! we are loving getting to know amber...my kids adore her!
i like the new look of your blog and appreciated your words on trust and enjoying the moment we are in...things that the Lord has been putting on my heart too! mark and i would still love to catch up with you when the time is right...feel a special connection with you!:)
have a blessed day! love, heather

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