How do our hearts respond?

When disaster strikes around the world and our hands cannot physically do anything to help, how do our hearts respond to tragedy at someone else's expense?  

Do they respond at all?  

I admit to being a late-comer to the news coverage in Japan.
My weekend was full and I'm not proud to say it became about ME and MY schedule and MY world.  

And not until yesterday did I sit down and really LOOK through eyes of compassion. 

How dare I?

While I cleaned my home for visitors, 

around the world there were real people trying to find their homes

while my home filled up with 

family 

and 

friends

there were real people searching desperately for theirs

life as they knew it a few days ago is gone

treasures stored up are broken and useless

{was there once a child in that empty basket?}

where once there was

 laughter

comfort

provision

safety

I imagine there is now a constant echo of

fear

resentment

anxiety

grief

hunger

bitterness

and for good reason...

life as it had been   

has changed.

displacement

and

deep, deep heartache

is everywhere

I cannot fathom such wrenching pain.

I've known my own

but with safety of 

home

family

clean water

food on the table

Never complete nothingness. 

Never.

But it can happen.

To any of us.

Anywhere.

The pictures remind me of

Haiti in ruin.

The aftermath of Hurricane Katrina.

I saw firsthand in 2006 and again in 2008 how devastating a natural disaster can be on 

families

homes

churches

communities

whole cities

But I also witnessed what it looks like when many hands work together for the common good.

I saw people who should have been devastated

 and frankly no one would have blamed them 

if they'd curled up in the fetal position for an inordinate amount of time.

I saw these people helping one another.

They had NOTHING left

and yet they gave.

They were the most grateful people I've ever met.

They fed us voluminous amounts of food

out of what little they had.

They 

chose 

Joy

And it was unnatural.

But it was beautiful.

I don't know how to rectify in my head the amount that was lost

and I'd never EVER sugar coat by saying 

"eventually it will be okay again"

The grieving father, mother, sister, brother

don't need to hear that today.

Today there is deep pain.

But I can't help but wonder about the stories we have not yet heard.

Stories of HOPE that will rise out of the rubble

{all pictures taken from boston.com}

Children who will rise up and rebuild what was lost and broken.

This story is not fully written

There will come a day of redemption 

when all disaster will be made sense

on the other side.

But maybe not until then.

Today it just hurts 

and 

makes you feel helpless.

And I think that's ok...

it's where God's heart of compassion merges with ours

and begins a new thing inside of us.

"When he looked out over the crowds, his heart broke. So confused and aimless they were, like sheep with no shepherd. 

"What a huge harvest!" he said to his disciples. 

"How few workers! On your knees and pray for harvest hands!"

Matthew 9:36

My heart is heavy...

I've been watching alot of news coverage the last few days...mesmorized by the horror that the nation of Haiti is living in this week....and for so many, many years to come.  I want to buy a plane ticket and sit on a corner just holding all of those sweet little babes who are now orphaned.  I'm not a nurse, I'm not fluent in French...but my arms are well trained to hug away the burdens of my children.  Who will wrap their arms around these little ones who watch with wide eyes...eyes that don't recognize a familiar face around them...eyes that see only despair and hopelessness. 

It makes no sense...it feels so wrong...

hello, sweet boy...so glad you have been rescued...

I've watched faces of hundreds of people wrenched with grief.  Looking around them nothing looks like it will ever be right again.  I cannot imagine.  My own family is tucked safely into their beds...wearing clean pjs, covered with warm blankets, with full bellies.  For this I am thankful...this moment of peace can be snatched away in an instant...life is so fragile.

There are glimpses of hope coming from strangers reaching out to strangers.  In a time of extreme economic difficulty our nation has sent over $100 million.  Our humanitarian hearts break for other nations in crisis...and I'm so glad that they do.  I've seen coverage of workers with World Vision and Compassion International who survived the earthquake and are now not only feeding mouths, but also feeding souls. 

I found a great blog written by a woman whose family is living and ministering in Haiti...check it out here.

 I can do nothing with my heavy heart but pray...for the faces of the children left behind...for the mother who's arms are empty...for the father who continues to search.  Even when there are no answers, there is still Hope.  God is still God...and His eye is still upon each one....

"God is a safe place to hide,
ready to help when we need Him.
We stand fearless at the cliff-edge of doom,

courageous in seastorm and earthquake,

Before the rush and roar of oceans,
the tremors that shift mountains.

Jacob-wrestling God fights for us,

God-of-Angel-Armies protects us."

Psalm 46:1