Trying to see...

Inevitably, it happens to almost all of us

and it happened to me, too...

the words on a page used to be so easy to see

and now suddenly, not.

I am not sure how one can have 20/20 vision and still need these...

but, it happens...

And it's funny how a little reading glass with a 1.0 prescription can make a difference

Who knew?  

I fought it for months, 

feigning perfect vision

Now, 

when I read or stare at the screen

the words are brighter and I see more clearly...

 Because of the pace of life right now

I'm trying to see other things more clearly, too.

You'd think with less kids in the house there'd be more time 

but with more working hours

and a full sports schedule

and just day to day life-

it seems like there's never enough hours in the day to just 

SEE

Every morning, on the way home from the school drop-off,

I pass this field

And because it's wide open and over my left shoulder

I cannot help but be reminded that

 as the sun rises again

I have a new chance to breathe in all that a day holds

with eyes that really see what is around me

Before a day is spent behind closed doors 

in an office with no windows

there is this sunrise...

this slowing down panoramic picture

that reminds me that I am still one of the little people

in a great big world

and I need to remember my place..

and slow down my pace

and see His Almighty hand 

right there

in front of me.

In the harried busyness is where I lose myself...

I am found

HE is found 

in the slow, open-eyed gaze 

of a life that stops to notice.

It doesn't come naturally to me in this schedule that I am still trying to get used to...

I see only when I slow to listen..

He beckons,

but so often I miss Him..

so busy just trying to keep things steady.

Trying to do it alone and well..

Trying to parent well,

work well,

keep a home well,

encourage well...

"Only in the slowing, the sitting down at the table, when His hands held the bread and the thanks fell from His tongue, do the open-eyed, the wide-eyed, see the Face they face {Luke 24:13-36} The FAST have spiritually SLOW hearts...and I don't reach forward and I don't reach back and I weigh the moment down with full attention here...I want to slow down and taste life, give thanks, and see God..." Ann Voskamp